A moment of clarity

On Saturday night, Rich and I actually went on a date. We were able to hire a babysitter and go out to dinner. It was very nice to have a few hours alone. We went to the Cheesecake Factory and ate entirely too much. Somewhere between our entrees and our Peanut Butter Cup cheesecake (we split it) there was a moment of clarity.

We undeniably know God called us to adopt.

Between the generous donations from our family/friends and payment for some unexpected work, our adoption pot has risen to over $4000. That's 95% of our payment due in a few days.

The deadline is looming. If we don't meet it, we'd either have to apply for an extension or apply to the program again. Neither of which sounds appealing at this point.

Under normal circumstances, we'd be jumping for joy over the provision. We're literally within a few hundred dollars of meeting our goal! But.......we have this lingering concern.....this lingering sadness. Just when I felt our roadblock of financial constraint was lifting (read the entry from March 24th), our efforts to save Lucy dwindled our pot considerably. Our moment of clarity, allowed us to see that that situation was an attack to get us off course. We need to stand in faith....we need to step out in faith....we need to trust, that we will have perfect provision when the time is appropriate.

Yes, we will have to pay for our home study in full in just a few weeks. And yes, I have NO IDEA how that will happen. But for right now, I don't need to know how.

We agreed to take it one-step at a time. Our first fees are due in a few days and we have almost the whole amount. Let's just send it in and not worry about tomorrow......for as a very wise person said "tomorrow has enough worries of it's own!"

So, it was settled. We're stepping out in faith and sending in our pot! It was that simple and back we went to engorging ourselves on cheesecake.